I suppose every blog has to start with something, so my first entry will be about this blog itself. Writing a blog is an idea that has been stuck in my head for a while now. I suppose we all have this sort of inner monologue from time to time and often I found myself writing a blog entry in my head about this or that.
Actually doing it is still quite a step for me because I am usually not the type of person that can commit to hobbies or other optional (for lack of a better word) projects for a longer period of time. In my case, it is mostly linked to my depression but maybe some of you are familiar with doing something you enjoy but the more time, effort and sometimes money you put into it, the more it starts to feel like a burden. Not because it isn’t fun anymore or because time and money are short but because you have more and more to lose if you stop.
I used to collect minerals. I still like looking at them but most of the time all I see is yet another thing that was unfinished, that I failed at, that requires cleaning or other maintenance that I don’t feel up to. I loved archery, I played piano and keyboard in a band, sang in a choir, I read books day and night, played video games, was in a swimming team and did many other things that you can immerse yourself in. But ultimately, I stopped everything and I felt defeated every time. Some things are easier to do infrequently, I still read books and I plan to do it more often but other things require regular practice and effort.
This blog is my attempt to do something that could be called productive instead of wasting away passively consuming one tv show after another without making a commitment that eventually feels like the sword of Damocles dangling over my head. And maybe some people out there will enjoy it or recognise themselves in it.
Depression
Depression and Anxiety will be a frequent topic, I plan to write about both my life with depression as well as mental illness in general.
Philosophy
While I had to leave my degree in Philosophy unfinished due to my condition, I am still very interested in it and on occasion I might write a short philosophical text that will hopefully but probably won’t be understandable and interesting.
Random Ranting
Every once in a while, I might post an angry tirade about tiny insignificant issues that just drive me nuts for some reason.
Moments of my life
I don’t plan to make this the sort of “I just had lunch #checkoutthesescones”-type of blog that was very popular in the early days of user-generated internet content but from time to time, I will write about bizarre or otherwise noteworthy moments of my life, such as the time my apartment building was taken over by punks.
Anything else
Food, Sex, Tea, Music, Relationships, Lego and anything else that takes my fancy may or may not be on this blog one day. No promises though.
The Metaphorical of Delphi 